Twisting and Turning

One of the hardest things I've had to do in 2010 was to leave the Peace Corps early. It was not a decision I took lightly. I leaped forward into this grand idea of becoming a winemaker. I was ecstatic and talked about it to a superfluous amount with my friends and family. In my mind I was set and had found that work in life that I could be passionate about. I was right in so many different ways. I was and am passionate about so many different aspects of the wine making process, but I once again came to a crossroad. I didn't feel "right" living in Napa Valley.

At first I thought it was because I was having a difficult time making friends up here. I thought it was the difference between living in the city and a rural area. Further on down the road, I found that it was a combination of that, financial restraints, and the hard labor/long hours/monotony of the work of a harvest intern. So my epiphany and another very difficult decision I've made this year is that while I love wine making and wine in general, it's not something I'd like to do for a career, but rather a hobby and a love of mine.

I haven't given up on finding a job I'm passionate about. Now, however, a little bit of wisdom has been added to my cap. Passion in something does not equate passion in a career in that same thing.

Now, the future? I'm planning to move up to Portland to do finance again (Hey! It pays the bills). I am going to be in Portland next week for interviews so wish me luck.